When my belief in God grew even more...

When I was in college and quite frankly probably my whole life, I knew that I was meant to have kids and be a mommy.  It was the one thing I knew God had planned for me.  After switching my degree {3} times in college, and now working a job that isn't related to my degree AT ALL, I can confirm that being a mommy is what makes me whole.  Cheesy? Perhaps.

But let me tell you why I have this appreciation for my sweet Coby and all the other babies here and to come.

When you're a little girl, you play house. You are the mom and you take care of your babies.  

The thing that never crosses your mind is 

the incredible miracle that these "babies" are.

The older I get and the more I see friends, family, and acquaintances go through tough times with infertility, losing children, and all the other struggles related to having children, the more my heart aches for them,

ALSO

the more my heart explodes with gratitude.

It took Nate & I about a year to get pregnant and truthfully, it wasn't ever something I imagined being difficult to achieve.  While pregnant, I can {happily} say that I had a very easy and uneventful pregnancy.  As the weeks went by and I did my weekly bump updates, I had this question constantly come to mind:

How can someone who has gone through pregnancy NOT believe in God?

Over & over again I was amazed the by the things that were happening inside of me, without me truly doing anything different.  Sure, I ate a healthy diet and avoided the things I was supposed to, but other than that-- I did nothing. N O T H I N G.

& yet this beautiful baby boy continued to grow {oh so perfectly, I might add}.  How can someone not think this was by design?  

Photo: Jessie Nichole Photography

Let's break down just a handful of innate happenings throughout pregnancy and child birth:

1. The body protects the baby, with the perfect amount of room and the right amount of amniotic fluid.

2. The baby gets nutrients FIRST, making sure he/she is never deprived.

3. Each and every body part and organ develops in the right timeline so that they can work together in unison.

4. A woman's body knows exactly what to do when it's "go-time".

5. When a baby is born, they come out breathing. Without ever having to think about it or be taught.  

6. The uterus contracts, on its own, due to the hormones that are released as the baby nurses.

7. The moment that Coby was born, it was his instinct to nurse.

8. Not only did he want to nurse, but he knew how to suck and breathe at the same time. 

I can't read these and think any of these {which is just a very small list} happen by chance.  The details and creativity behind it all is beyond human comprehension.

I can honestly say that pregnancy truly made me feel closer to God, knowing that he was creating my sweet baby exactly the way he was meant to be.  And I know I would say this even if Coby was born with any kind of birth defects or abnormalities. 

 God created this beautiful, sweet, perfect, loving human being with his own two hands.

Photo:  Chika Sunoto Photography

I am SO thankful that the One who has created the beauty of pregnancy, childbirth, and children is the One who knows me by name and the one who I can call on for everything.  Because obviously, he knows what he is doing.

Sidenote: I'm not a doctor or scientist, so please realize this isn't intended to start an argument or scientific statistics.  This is my own experience and how it helped me see God in a new light.

xox,

Naomi